Living with Stomach Cancer

I was diagnosed with cancer at the end of april 2007. My stomach was sooo distended that my sisters thought i was preggers. after having 8 litres of fluid drained from my abdomen, i had a ct scan. i immediately had surgery to remove my omentem and i was diagnosed with a stage 3C cancer. i underwent 3 chemo treatments and they wanted to go back in for surgery to debulk the tumors. the doctors who performed the surgery were extremely happy with the results. however, the pathology report showed that the cancer cells look similar to gastric cancer cells. i was just at the cancer center the other day to see an oncologist and he scared me with his honesty. he was talking about the prognosis, telling me i had a very advanced cancer, that it is not curable. he is putting me back on chemo soon, but my spirit has been broken a little even though i have amazing sisters and girlfriends and a boyfriend who wakes up to hug and kiss me every morning its hard to stay positive. my mom has passed away and i know she is looking out for me. i cry a lot. it’s so hard to be strong when you don’t know what the heck is going to happen. i am not working right now and probably have a little too much time on my hands. i realize anything can happen and i am trying so hard to be positive and go through this with some grace. i just need to know i am not alone with my fears and i need to talk with people who are on my side of the fence.